I woke early
to the dull ache of eternity
without you.
No tangled limbs or tousled head
no imprint of body in my bed
to say we ever existed.
I pulled myself into, military hue
pretended nothing mattered
over coffee and the breaking of bread;
but then I listened to one of our tunes
something snapped inside my head
into colours of you.
I woke early
to sharp call of summer bird,
it should have been ok
that we were so,
long ago
so far away.
I woke early
to a pepper cracked sky
the wind in the trees,
there was nothing
to say, no more games
to play:
I woke early
no reason to live or die
for I woke to eternity
without you.