Sky dusted

jet stream

 

cold crystals

bone shatters.

 

January sticks

imminent:

 

impersonal.

 

I’m treading

iced water

 

gasping for

heat.

 

Years scatter

dreams

 

hope

lingers

 

like

sugar:

 

dust;

glistening.

 

Waiting

 

spring’s

tumescence.

 

 

 

 

 

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Cocooned in seal bliss bed curling warmth,

earth coated wedding dress white

grass contorted, trees jangling stalactites

far down beneath in dark concealing peace

worms spin their lonely journey.

 

Snow is no soft option as the griping

cold turns breath to smoke, dragons

in my heart whip and churn cry out

for recognition: the city is a still gown

of feathers in the frost.

 

Bright eyed children wipe frozen fingers

I have reached saturation, rising from dream seas

contorted glaciers of my mind’s synapses

snap bridges shut I’m washed by ice flows

glinting on moon dulled landscapes.

 

Breath turns as ultramarine becomes black

mind replays symbols:

 

Childhood taught me the need for ritual for the living, mourners hung in white robes, incense trailing pungent smoke, clashing symbols and then voices raised in grief’s cry. There was so much heat on those fervent tropical streets while children threw small candy to appease threatening deities. We would raid Chinese graveyards at half-light, swimming the monsoon’d alleyways to retrieve jangled treasure, crumpled photos of deceased Buddha’s left to protect, no sooner owned than somehow shrinking in stature. Sitting high on flat porch roof watching Ramadan’s procession, men with knives stuck through tongues, beating drums, chanting priests, swaying of naked bodies, and we knew they were bound for the snake temple, the creatures a slithering mass of poison the opiated faithful crawled amongst.

We sucked florid ice cubes daring each other to jump, fly the forty foot from sky to concrete, until I, trying out my seven-year-old flirtations egged the boy next door to his doom. We watched him fly, then crash, and later drew dragons on his plaster cast taking it in turns to knitting needle the itching.  Amah’s clattered in the crowds below calling errant children as we surveyed the crush in safe serenity.

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Here on this seal morning it is the lack of heat that drives me down deep my hands stiff like my wisteria, gaunt and crusted with Northern winter.

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You,

child

 

of destiny:

 

you swim

like

 

sea – salt

wind:

 

as thin

as wisp

 

of fairy cloth.

 

I spun you

in my sleep

 

grew your

sea shell

 

tendrils;

 

love

incarnate.

 

I gift you

a life

 

of raindrop

laughter,

 

umbilical

mysteries

 

blood

of my

 

blood

 

 

my

joyful

 

secret.